before that...minutes lang ang pagitan..i told my mom na takot na ko matulog sa room niya (dati kase dun ako parati..hehe..lambing lang) kase 3 times na magkakasunod na pag dun ako natutulog im experiencing nightmares.. as in hirap akong huminga tapos kahit gusto ko ng magising ayaw paren..ganun yung pakiramdam..

since it happened yesterday, andito yung plantsadora namen...and she heard what i'm saying, tapos nagsimula na siyang manermon...sabi niya bago daw kase ako matulog ay hingin ko dawang patnubay ng panginoon para dawilayo ako sa mga ganung klaseg panaginip..wala kong masagot kundi uhhmmm....kase to tell you honestly, hindi ako madasalin, hindi ako relhiyoso, sobrang bihira yung mga oras na tintawag ko yung name niya,(sa twing may problema lang ako, na hindi ko na kaya pang solusyunan) ang sama ko noh??kesa namn magpakaimpokrito ako...

aun na nga...back to my story...sabi ko ayoko sumama...tapos sabay sabat ni ate mila..sabi niya kaya daw ako ganun kase nga malayo daw ang loob ko sa diyos....hhhaaayyyy...meron ba talagang malapit at malayo???well, i dont think so....sigurado akong sa loob ng simbahan, 50% dun ay nagsisiba ng hindi bukal sa loob nila, (minsan nga eh 75% pa...) yung iba, gusto lang pumorma, yung iba eh pakitang tao, yung iba kase kasama yung syota, tapos yung iba naman ay dahil sa nakaugalian na lang...well, im not like that, i see myself better than those people who are full of pretensions and hippocracy running through their blood streams..

i believe in Him....absolutely...kaya nga pag di ko na kaya yun...xa na yung kinoconsult ko...
i trust him..and i have faith in him.....i know the difference between being religous and being someone who has a great faith in Him...

ewan..hindi talaga ko naniniwalang malayo ako sa kanya...at may mga taong malalapitsa knya...para pa san yung parable of the prodigal son diba??hindi ba't yun yung ibig sabihin nun???

hope i didnt sound nonsense.

Natutuwa pa rin naman ako sa sarili ko dahil sa kabila ng pagiging mapaghangad ko sa bagay, maging sa materyal man o sa ibang aspeto.. napipigil ko naman ang aking sarili.. natutuwa ako dahil naisasabuhay ko ang kinalakihan ko sa aming pamilya.. ang mga itinuro nila mama.. isipin mo to, natalo ako sa laban ko sa aking sariling konsensya,. ngunit sa kabila nito, AKO pa rin ang PANALO...

Isang sabado ng umaga, nagising ako at naaubatan si mama na kausap si papa sa telepono.. ang aking bunsong kapatid ay nasa kusina at naglalaro ng kanyang nintendo DS.. ang aking ibang kapatid ay nakahiga pa sa kanya kanyang kama. Ako naman ay nagbukas ng computer para magbasa ng mga blog na nakagawian ko na... Tinawag ako ni mama sandali dahil nasa labas ng bahay ang mga bakal bote boys.. pagkakataon na namin para maidispose ang  mga nakakalat na karton.. ang hindi mabilang na lata ng coke na pinaginuman nila mama, lola at mga kapatid.. kung tutuusin, nag uumapaw ang mga lata ng coke.. grabe silang uminom.

Pinanood ko lang ang dalawang batang lalaki habang iniipon ang mga karton at lata ng coke.. tinali nila at kinilo.. bingo, may pera na... naipagbili ko ang kalat sa likod namin sa halagang 156 pesos.. bigtime ang mga bata nung araw na yon,, ang dami nilang nabili sa amin at may tubo sila dun pag naibenta nila yon, masaya ako at natulungan namin sila.  sapat na ang kita nila sa maghapon.. napag isip isip ako, na mahirap talaga mabuhay dito sa mundo.. mahirap mabuhay sa pilipinas.. lumaki akong ang tanging responsibilidad ay tingnan ang aking mga nakababatang kapatid, mag aral ng mabuti at maging mabait sa magulang.. habang tumatanda ako.. lumalawak pa ang aking responsibilidad.. pero silang mga bata, na sa murang edad ay napakalaki na ng responsibilidad sa balikat, ay kailangan ng magpainit sa araw para lamang makasunod sa hamon ng buhay.. Hinahangaan ko sila.. marahil hindi ko kayang gawin ang mga ginagawa nila.. Inaamin kong maselan akong tao at minsan ay may mga reklamo pero alam ko ang halaga ng bagay at buhay dito sa mundo. Malaki pa rin ang pagpapasalamat ko sa diyos para sa buhay na ibinigay niya sa akin at sa pamilya ko.. sa isang  buhay na masaya,.

hanggang ngayon, patuloy pa rin akong naghahangad.. na sana ay maabot ko ang kung ano man ang minimithi ko sa buhay.. naghahangad ako dahil alam kong may magagawa pa ako... alam kong para ito sa ikabubuti ko at ng mga taong mahal ko, ngayon at sa hinaharap :D

As I turned on the radio this morning, I was surprised to hear a seemingly familiar accent--a Filipino speaking English. As it turned out, it was an excerpt of the question and answer segment of the Binibining Pilipinas 2008. Here's a video of that fateful Q&A:

I was smiling while the radio hosts were flabbergasted and laughing their hearts out--"why can't she complete the sentence?!!" It was funny at first then I also felt embarrassed as it was a topic over the radio in Perth! I also had some grammar slip-ups both in writing and speaking (whether Filipino or English, that is) but to highlight it like this is like Spongebob under the bright sun.

Well, my whole point for this post--I do agree that we should develop our language, our culture (as in preserving our alphabet, scripts among others) but we should also be ready for the world--it's a global village becoming smaller and smaller each day and it is inevitable that we compete head on.

Mabuhay ang Filipino!

Ganito kasi iyon....

Traffic light turned yellow, I was going to make a right turn, and so of course I stopped since there were cars making a left turn and also some possible pedestrians I thought were going to cross the street. Then I hear several honks. Hmnn. possibly form the car behind me. And so I made my right turn on to this one lane street. It was a busy street, right in front of a school, we were barely inching forward. And then a car from a driveway decided to inch its nose onto the road to make his turn. What am I to do? I gave way. Commom courtesy I guess. Then this car behind me, honks his horn again several times. This is now starting to irk me, A LOT. And yeah, another car decides to butt in front of me to make a left turn onto the school's driveway. Well, I just had to stop ofcourse and I took my time some more and pressed on my brakes several times. This guy driving behind me starts making faces and gestures with his hands. I can see from my rear view mirror. What did I do? I gave him the finger. I guess, this provoked him more, he opens up his window, sticks his head out and starts shouting, whatever it is I didn't care and didnt hear. I raised my arms and copied him. I was starting to get scared he might bump my car or rear end me. My heart is pounding now. I kept on driving, and he made a turn to go to his destination, his window was still open and he was still shouting, I opened my window too and shouted at the top of my lungs, I cursed. Naku, first time ako sumigaw ng "F@#k You" at the top of my lungs. Sa isang stranger pa. I was mad. I heard him laughing.

This guy was obviously in a hurry or maybe that's just the way he is but man, he cant do that, its not proper. I seldom honk my horns and only when I know that the other driver deserves it. Even in this case I did not even honk my horns. Nakakainis talaga. Hmmp!!!

Nothing special for me this valentines, bukas, kasama ko ang mga groupmates ko coz may duty kami sa communicable disease sa San Lazaro Hospital sa Rizal Avenue, Sta Cruz Manila.. haha.. complete address talaga no.. so technically, Im gonna celebrate valentines with the sick people.. toink..

Not having a date or whatever this valentines doesn't mean that I have to be bitter.. I can still celebrate it with my family and some friends.. Oha Oha.. haha : )

P.S

Check out my prom pics in my multiply.. for those who are looking.. 

Note: I truly found this hilarious that I had to repost it here. Picked this up from a comment made by bienkyut at Gabe Mercado's blog. I hope it's okay with both of them. I did not see any copyright statement hehehe... so enjoy reading! ^_^

It’s so hirap talaga to study in UP, the University of the Poor. You know, I never wanted to study here. But my parents kasi, they both went to UP and they said na it was the best school talaga. Eh ‘di I went. But no! When I got here, Holy Horrors! I was ready to make himatay after the first day pa lang. Would you believe, ther’s no aircon na nga in the classrooms, the fan doesn’t work pa.

And then this guy who was like, wearing a sando, shorts and tsinelas lang made tabi next to me. He made pakilala pa! The nerve! So I made takbo to the CR to make tago. But I couldn’t make hugas my hands that were so pawis from escaping such a near-death experience. There was no liquid soap! Not even a couch where I could sit to make kikay.

Do you feel the pain na ba? But wait, there’s more. Last Thursday kasi Daddy’s Volvo was bawal, eh the Eclipse was being repaired, so I had to make sakay with my yaya in the Ikot jeep. It was so siksik! I could like, smell the putok of the girl next to me. Like, it was sobrang mabaho talaga. Kasi naman, the Ikot jeeps are old na nga, they’re mainit pa! Sana they make palit na the jeeps with a shuttle system. Okey lang naman even if there’s an increase in pamasahe di ba? So when the car is bawal, I can use my credit card na to make bayad.

Isa pa, you know the Shopping Center? It’s so kadiri talaga. I’m forced na nga to make Xerox there, (as if naman I could be caught in that place otherwise) pero I’m so inis because it’s so maliit and madilim and most of the stalls don’t have aircon. They should tear it down na and build a mall na lang. Then I wouldn’t have to go to Katipunan pa to get my Starbucks fix.

My gosh, this place is so bulok! I don’t know nga why anyone would bother making turo here pa. Just yesterday, my professor was kinda inis kasi her whiteboard marker had no more tinta! Then she tried to make hanap a matino whiteboard marker but of course there was none. Duh! Kasi naman if we had laptops instead of desks in everyday classroom there would be no more need for whiteboards diba??? But you know even if there were laptops na, the seats are so tigas sometimes I find it mahirap to concentrate. Dapat cushioning para malambot sa butt, like Downy.

Now I’m in my third year na. I don’t want to stay in this place anymore. I don’t give a paki if UP’s the best university here. I’m going to transfer to La Salle, where the CRs have liquid soap. Now na.

It's been a while since I last blogged. Almost a month, based on my archives. Ang daming gumugulo sa isip ko. Could it be because of the holiday season? Di ko alam. This has been a rough year for me.

I've gone through things in my life that were firsts for me. And they have affected me a great deal. Pero dapat bang magmukmok ako? Hindi rin. We all go through trials in our lives. I just hope I will be strong and wise enough to tackle those challenges.

That's life after all. Hindi pwedeng puro saya na lang. Dahil kung puro saya, paano mo malalaman ang difference between joy and pain? And there have been painful moments this year. It made me appreciate the things I used to take for granted.

Pero minsan I still can't help but feel down. Tao lang naman ako. Masakit mang isipin pero marami rin akong pagkakamaling nagawa sa buhay ko. I just hope na natuto na ako and not repeat history.

It's time to pick up the pieces and move on. I need to quit dwelling on the past and move on. Ika nga ni Leann Rimes "Life goes on." And finally, sabi ni Ol' Blue Eyes "That's life." (",)

Unlike nations such as Japan, China, and India, where adoption of English has been driven by business and trade, American colonialism led to the wide adoption of English in Philippines.  Starting in 1901, public education was institutionalized by the Americans, and English was used in schools.  As a result, English is the "official second language" of the country.

Over 10% of Filipinos work overseas as as Overseas Foreign Workers (OFW).  With current population estimates at 91 Million citizens, an estimated 11 Million Filipinos work overseas, typically supporting their families back in Philippines.  An estimated 4 million work in the United States - after China, Filipinos are the largest Asian immigrant population in the US.  Many of these foreign workers are improving English skills in the US, and learning other languages in other countries as well. 

There are over 70 native languages spoken in Philippines, and by some estimates there are over 100.  While the Filipinos tend to call these "dialects," linguists see them as distinct languages (mutual unintelligibility.)  Cebuano's, unless they learn the language, can't understand Ilonggos; Tagalog speakers can't understand someone speaking Waray.  So, Filipinos with different family languages tend to "default" to Tagalog or English, which are both taught in schools.  In Manila, the center of business and Philippines media, "Taglish" is increasingly spoken. 

With so many Filipinos speaking two, three, or four languages crowded together in one small place , it leads me to speculate that Filipinos are vastly more comfortable learning new languages than most Americans can ever imagine. While I have no data to support this idea, I believe if there were a search to find the countries that lead in their ability to learn languages, Philippines would rank at or near the top. 

Does this ability to learn languages, and the fact that many Filipinos know multiple languages already, uniquely position Philippines for economic growth? 

November 1 and 2.

Stuck in the office and because of that, I didn't get to visit my dad in Laguna. How heartless can this company get?

I get pissed off whenever I recieve this Announcement E-mail from the company. Well, especially whenever a holiday thingy is announced. The letter would sometimes state what kind of holiday pay we would be getting. At the end of every e-mail, there's this phrase, *It's business as usual for operations.

Well, to hell with that phrase!

American corporation? Parang ginagamit lang ata nila tayo eh. It seems like mas sila ang nagbebenefit, kesa tayo ang mag benefit. Since andito sila sa Pinas, they should follow kung ano ang meron dito. Hindi yung sila ang masusunod. Kung holiday dito, dapat walang work. Like Nov. 1 and 2. Kasi siguro, hindi nila pinapahalagahan ang mga ganung bagay katulad natin dito sa Pilipinas.

And just an advanced shoutout, I'll be here in the office on Christmas Day and New Year's day. Wow, talaga. That's the downside of working for a BPO, I guess.

It's not about the holiday pay e. It's more of the moments with the family and friends na nawawala. Napaka unfair.

Medyo na fifeel ko na kuripot sa benefits dito. Hmm, what about the healthcard? Eh, hindi naman ako naoospital e, so lugi ako. 500,000 ba kamo? Eh, hindi ko nga nagamit yung card ko for a year na. Hmm, nagamit ko siya once lang. Dahil wala lang ako magawa non, kaya nagpaconsult ako, kahit wala naman ako sakit.

Don't get me wrong, I love the company that I'm working for, may mga hindi lang talaga ako maintindihan. Yung environment is super okay. But the pay? I'm not speaking for myself but for everyone na din. Yung pay ( in our account)... NO COMMENT.

Yes, okay ang environment, at yung healthcard compared sa ibang BPOs. Pero what about the money incentives? Sa ibang company, nakakalunod.

The only money incentive everyone is looking forward to (at least in my account, not sure with the other accounts)  is the X'mas bonus and the other one bonus that I can't mention. Other than that, wala na. We don't even have a mid-year bonus.

Yung friend ko, they have, kahit hindi ganon kaganda ang salary.

Hay...

I thought I was over this office crap, pero hindi pa pala. I can't help but rant about it, but I do am thankful that my salary is a bit higher than the minimum wage. Sigh.

Performance-based daw? Or ass-kissing based?

Well, I don't have anything to say about ass kissers, buhay nila yun. May mga binubuhay sila, so kailangan nilang kumapit sa patalim.

If you're reading this, FY ka!

Tanggalin daw ba ang yahoomail

at ang deezer

at ang kahit ano!!!

Ikaw kaya ang magtrabaho sa account namin ng walang music at kahit ano kundi yung dictionary.com lang at yung mga walang kasaya sayang Web site? Leche!

Naiirita ako.

Ang galing mong tu-miming. Nov 1, na dapat wala kami ngayon sa office pero andito kami ngayon. E bakit mo pinalusot ang yahoomail noon, tapos bigla mong tatanggalin?

FY ka talaga! Panira ka ng araw!

O ako lang ang tinanggalan mo???

Kilala ba kita ha?

O isa ka sa (ayoko na magsalita, leche)

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About the above post...

I'm just pissed off. Yep, company policy, na walang im, mails etc, eh ang akin lang, bakit super hindi naman naka surfcontrol yung mga yun dati? Anu ba, nakakaloko sila ah. Ngayon, holiday andito kami sa office at anu, boringgggg!!! Garrr talaga kung sinu man ang nagutos!!! E pati yung music site na pinupuntahan ko tinanggal din!!! I'm sorry nakakairita lang talaga.

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